HELP!!! Im in love with my cousin.. now that she knows she keeps me at arms length.. n im planning my suicide?

wow that was long haha, but its ok. well heres what i think. i think u should NOT kill urself. plz plz plz dont. this girl is not worth it, she said " i cant deal with ur issues" thats just mean. ik u love her, but their r wayy better girls out there and she doesnt deserve u. and do really want to die? really?? i dont think u do, ur only 19 u have so much more of ur life to go through, and it will get better it will. u can get help, ik u probably think suicide is the only solution but its not. my friend was suicidal and then she started taking medicine and saw a phsyciatrist and now shes happy. think how grateful u'll be when ur fourty that u didnt kill urself, when u have a wife that deserves ur love and kids. so ill beg again. plzz plz dont kill urself.